Saturday, November 22, 2008

I haven't given up.

I felt like it was important to let people know that if anyone has actually read this since its inception, or stumbles upon it by some chance some day.. I'm still around and what not. I just decided to momentarily take my writing process in a different direction.

Why would I start this blog and then change the way I write?

I guess it comes down to a lot of things. For the past however many years I've had access to a computer, I've been taking my writing there first, writing page by page as it comes to me...and I've realized that doesn't really work. I don't become invested in the people I'm writing, or the story I'm creating for them that way. I don't finish the stories as a result. I don't know what my characters want for breakfast, or their family trees, or whats going on in their head at any given moment...and if I do, it's because I'm writing someone who either closely resembles me or someone else I've gotten acquainted with enough to be inside their head.

I need to grow as a writer. So I decided to buy myself a new journal at work...partially because it's cute and red and soft and awesome, but also because of all I've heard of the benefits of writing something down with your own two hands before transferring it onto a screen, and I do have to say, that kinda thing has worked decently for me in the past, and it's working really well now too, when I actually have the time to sit and write.

I carry it everywhere with me...and the first and only story I have in it so far is preceded by pages and pages of notes and ideas and questions I have about my characters in an attempt to really get under their skin and flesh them, and the circumstances surrounding them out. Do I know that this will definitely yield my desired results? Not at all...but I figure its worth a shot. This is something I really want to work on for myself and the only way to do it is to give it my best shot in all directions.

I also haven't been writing in here because of time constraints, along with insecurities and laziness. I have a few rough things written in saved blogs...but they're somewhat autobiographical and as I'd like to shy away from those things a bit, I haven't posted them yet. That doesn't mean I will or won't...I'm trying to figure out the apropriateness of posting them. They reveal sides of me I'm not sure I want the public at large to see...partially because I'm choosing to exaggerate them for my own literary purposes and I just don't know if people will completely get that...and I really don't want to end up getting egged every day as I leave my house. Not really the best way to show up to work you know?

So once my story is finished in my little red journal...it'll be in here for your reviewing pleasure. Maybe I'll toss in a few more character studies, and autobiographical stories disguised as character studies and vice versa for any readers' viewing pleasure. I can only hope someone enjoys or despises my writing enough to actually make a comment one of these days.

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